Waiting to bloom in an otherwise barren desert we call the dating world can be depressing. But there's no need to feel like the last single person left on the planet. There's plenty of people without partners happily going about their lives. So quit worrying and start living.

So after receiving the results of my biopsy, I am happy to say that the lump in my breast is only a fibroadenoma.
However, due to the size (4 cm) I still have to get it removed.
And I have to miss the first two days of classes to do it.

Hopefully I'll recover fast so I get back to my life.

Anyways...

I'm soooo excited for school to start that I can barely stand it!!! Move back in on the 23rd!!
Can't wait to see my Roomie, friends, and sisters!! I feel like this is going to be a great year!

Your Life-Path number is probably the most influential numerological aspect to be considered. This number is determined by your birth date and represents who you are at this time. It indicates specific traits that are present and will likely be active and influential throughout your lifetime. It is the overall number that determines much of what will be important to you and how you will handle things as they come.

If your Life-Path number is THREE, your life is likely to be characterized by the undying need for expression. This can take the form in conversation but also in the arts. Typically, the THREE has an above-average ability in some art form. This can encompass painting, interior decorating, crafts, writing, music, drama or all of the above.

Enjoying the company of like minded creative people is likely to be on your top ten list of pleasures. THREE’S are genuinely warm and friendly. They make excellent friends by sharing interesting information and by actively listening. Entertaining in your home comes readily for most THREE’S as you can make everyone feel at home. With such a sunny disposition and openhearted approach, others will naturally seek out your hospitality. Key words for a THREE Life-Path number are expression, verbalization, socialization, the joy of living, the arts and travel.

As a THREE, you’re likely to be an entertainer either formally or within your social circle. You’re one of the effervescent, sparkling people in the world with an eternal optimism. Things will rarely get a THREE down. Setbacks will be just a part of the overall scheme of things and won't keep you from feeling positive. This exuberant demeanor and love of life can take a THREE to great lengths when creative expression is developed.

With this in mind, the THREE’S life purpose is to develop self-expression in a tangible, productive means. It’s important to nail down the artistic outlets that you thrive most in. The best work will be produced when a THREE focuses on their own personal expression and not what the market wants. This isn't always an easy path, yet it will be richly rewarding. Optimism is a powerful tool for the actively expressive THREE.

Because of the THREE’S innate love of fun and living for the moment, challenges can develop. It can be common to lack foresight and this thinking can bring about overspending, unexpected moodiness and unproductivity. Further, the love of just having fun can lead towards escapism. Scattered focus can create a situation where there’s a lot of activity without results. The THREE is wise to develop set goal plans and to learn solid balance between creative work and social fun.

So a few moments ago I blogged about basically what I wish was going on in my life. lol.
Now to get back to reality...unfortunately.

So a few months ago while performing a breast self exam I found a lump on my breast. Thinking it would go away, I did nothing about it. Basically, I just kept the information to myself.
However, it didn't go away like I was hoping it would.
Throughout these past few months I've continued to do self check ups to see if it was still there. And it was.
About a month ago, I finally told my mom that I felt something but wasn't sure what it was. I figured that it probably was a calcium deposit (something that my aunt had a few years ago that went away on its own).
My mom then scheduled me a Dr.'s appt. Oh what joy.
Never having been to that  kind of Dr. I really wasn't very excited. So my appointment is scheduled for Wednesday (my only day off through the week) July 9th. As I go in to the dr.'s I'm a little nervous and not entirely sure what to expect. I put on the little gown and the Dr. gives me a clinical breast exam.
To my joy, my Dr. feels what I'm feeling (I'm not crazy! Yay!). But this also means that there is something there. My Dr. says that he's pretty sure it's dense breast tissue, but he wants me to get a breast ultrasound just in case. Evidently they prefer not to give women under 30 mammograms so that they do not expose the breast to radiation.
So a week later (the 16th), I use another one of my day's off to go to the hospital to get the ultrasound. Upon arriving, I find that my Dr. had made the referral order for the wrong breast; therefore, I had to wait an extra 20 minutes to get an order for the right breast (literally).
Once the order comes in they have me put a cloak on that is open in the front. I lay down on the table, put my arm over my head while the ultrasound technician does her thing. It takes about 5 minutes. After she's done, the doctor comes in to explain what they have found.
A little nervous, but just ready to find out what's wrong with me, the doctor tells me that he is about 98% sure that I have something called a fibroadenoma. What a fibroadenoma is is a benign (non-cancerous) solid growth/tumor/mass (whatever you want to call it). He says that it's about an inch in diameter.
Having done a little bit of breast cancer/ lump research, I had at least seen the word and knew that it was non-cancerous. Apparently this lump grows in about 10% of white women under thirty and 20% of black women under 30. It's like a tumor in the breast glands. They're not really sure why it happens, but a lot of doctors think that it has to do with your estrogen and hormone levels. When it comes to older women, it usually occurs in women who are on the pill, or take hormone medication. It rarely occurs in post-menopausal women unless they are taking hormone replacement pills.

However, you have to remember that the dr. is not 100% sure that my lump is a fibroadenoma; therefore, I have to go get a breast biopsy. This meaning, I get to be numbed up, then have a needle shoved into me to remove tissue from the lump. You guessed, "oh yippee".
So I'm not out of the clear yet. There's something like a 5% chance that it could be breast cancer or something else. My biopsy is scheduled for the July 29th. So I'll find out a little after that.

Hopefully it's not cancer, but a fibroadenoma,.
If it's a fibroadenoma, I have the option of getting it removed or leaving it in there (and have at least one yearly clinical breast exam to make sure it's not growing or what not). If it's removed I have the chance that it will come back or another will appear in my other breast or somewhere else in this breast. Oh and I also will now have a higher chance of getting breast cancer in the future. Oh skippy.

BASICALLY, THE MORAL OF THIS TALE IS THAT IF YOU ARE A WOMAN, YOU SHOULD AT LEAST BE DOING SELF CHECK UPS. YOU SHOULD ALSO BE GETTING A YEARLY CLINICAL BREAST EXAM.
IF YOU EVER DO FEEL A LUMP OR ANYTHING UNUSUAL, CONTACT YOUR DOCTOR AND SCHEDULE AN APPT, IT'S THE LEAST YOU CAN DO.
DON'T EVER THINK THAT SOMETHING LIKE THIS WILL NEVER HAPPEN TO YOU, IT OBVIOUSLY CAN!!
IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT AGE, RACE, OR EVEN SEX YOU ARE. GET CHECKED OUT!

GOD BLESS!!

LOVE,

Sarah

What do I want most from this world?

Love

Someday I want to be head-over-heels, passionately, can't possibly think straight in love.
And I want to be loved back.
I want a soul mate picked for me exclusively by God.
Someone who makes me feel like I have never felt before. Someone who is my equal in every way.
My soul-mate.
Recently a woman in my Bible study was married. To see pictures of her and her husband steals my breath away. You can see that God has truly blessed their lives with love and happiness. You can see that even though things won't always be perfect, they will always have each other.
I want that.
I want that perfect moment when you walk down the isle on your wedding day and see your fiancee, soon to be husband, only has eyes for you.
I want the moment when you say I do and your life truly begins.
I want the honey moon. I want the babies that will surely come.
I want it all.
I know that God has a plan for me and that it's just not my time yet.
So I'm being patient. I still have years to go I'm sure.
But someday...
I pray that God answers my prayers and blesses me with the gift of both love, a husband, and a family...